Blank Momentum

It's really staring at nothing... You just have to pretend that everything is fine. You have to look as if it does not bother you. And sometimes, you seem to listen when you really don't. It's just convincing yourself that this will soon end. And the time is worthy enough to consume for waiting.

I see different kinds of people. But it's the kind of people watching that makes you feel boring. Because this isn't actually a people watching. You're bound to do at least something but you're not.

I see different kinds of vehicles over the glass window passing along the highway. The big ones sometimes conceal the boring statue of a Chinese fast food chain. And I think, this statue and I are alike. We are bored of every second that passes by. But at least, there are these big vehicles that every sudden moment and then another, conceal its boredom. While I,.. well, I have to conceal it with myself. Alone.

I see this particular situation. And it urges me to be dissuaded. But I should not. Because I have to do this. Even if it means to do nothing.

Now I see myself. A guy with pretentious stare. And I am struggling with this growing apathy. It somewhat consumes me. But I have to compel myself...

-written during my OJT...

A Song Lyric For Roman

Just finished this song before the twilight. Paulit-ulit ko pang nireview yung mga words at yung measure. Palitan mo na lang yung mga trip mong palitan. At sana magawan niyo nga ng arrangement to'...


Title: Shooting Rainbow

I
Nakapatong pa rin ang lungkot sa iyong payong
Di tuloy matanaw ang liwanag ng umaga
Sa kabila ng pagbuhos ng ulan, sa magdamag na puwang
Tuwid pa rin ang estatwa mo

Refrain
Di naman talaga kailangang magsaya
Pawiin lang ang pagbuhos ng ulan sa'yong mga mata
At sa pagsara ng payong mo ay malasin ang pagtila

Chorus
(At guguhit/Gumuguhit) ang mga kulay sa kalangitan
Taglay ang aliwalas ng paglipas na nilisan
Na paulit-ulit nagbabalik
Ngunit ngayo'y susupilin ng kubang bahaghari

II
Nanghaharana ngayon ang daliri na kanina
Sumasahod sa alulod ng iyong payong
Kasama ka, tupi ang mga batok at nakatunganga
Hanggang mapanis ang laway ko

Bridge
Hindi man ako,
kasing-kulay niya,
kasing-tingkad niya,
kasing-nais ng iyong mga mata
Mananatili lang
At ako'y magmamasid
Kahit paulit-ulit,
magpabalik-balik
Ang pagbuhos ng ulan...

Chorus2
At gumuguhit ang mga kulay sa kalangitan
Taglay ang pagkagiliw na hahawa sa labi mo
At guguhit ang ngiti at aliwalas
Na sa panalangin ko'y sana'y ako ang 'yong bahaghari...

The New Rose

He saw a girl..
She saw a boy...

And she's not beautiful..
And he's a cute boy...

He stole away the rose from her ear..
She cried so bad and followed him running...

He paused..
She cried louder...

Only to find out that the rose was lost..
She stopped to cry and walked away...

He felt sorry for her..
She's mad at him.....


He saw a rose..
She saw a rose...

He picked the rose to surprise the girl..
It was given to her by a gentle boy...

So he went to the girl..
So she forgot the lost rose...

Only to find out that the girl has a new rose..
She stopped to smile when she saw the cute boy...

And it was too late for him to hide the rose..
She felt sorry for him.....

A Not So Love Story

Once, she sent me a friend request..

I smiled sweetly. She was actually my special crush back in high school..

I tried to poke her..

But she didn't poke me back..

I always liked her status and photos everytime i open my account..

But she didn't recognize it. She didn't even like my status whenever i post something..

Just this September, i greeted her on her birthday by posting on her wall..

And she didn't even thank me just like those grats that i receive from those people that i greet even we don't know each other personally..

Then one day, i had the gut to message her. And do you know what it contained?

'ang ganda mo pa din. at medyo crush pa din kita...'

Surprisingly, she finally responded:

'ganun?!? hahaha...'

Boy, i felt stupid and hopelessly fetted..

She hadn't better sent me that friend request. But more than that, i should have not taken that so deeply..

After a deep sigh, i unfriended her..

Just for me to realize when i viewed her profile one time that she is a private user and she can't be sent a friend request that easy..

But i just didn't mind it..

I don't know what's her reason of sending me a friend request despite that she has this private account and chosen friends on her account..

I don't want to expect something anymore..

But just yesterday, i was very surprised when i logged in, she sent me again a friend request..

I was unconscious for a while..

But after a few seconds, i clicked the IGNORE button..

After all, she will never be mine...

:(